Ambulance Sirens where going off, as i was put into the back of the ambulance, Monay held my hand and begged the drivers to go faster, i was groggy it wasnt like i was dead but i felt in and out of it, hell i felt he must have put his legs into that punch because i was knocked out with one punch! the additional punch and kick weren’t even needed. i was brought into the emergency room and when i awoke i saw Monay sitting next to me flipping threw the channels of the TV in the hospital room, Monay i said lowly, she rushed to my bed side and touched my hair, hey friend you feeling okay she asked me, yea im okay except for being in the hospital. What the doctor’s say since i been napping i asked. GIRL im gone have to let u talk to them she said with a little shock in her voice, i tried to position myself to sit up but the pain in my upper body was to unbearable, my cheek was bruised nd i noticed i had a head ached and i felt a pad between my legs but didnt understand what for, my period wasnt due for another 2 weeks. Wheres Nyree i asked Monay. thats a good question he said he would be on his way asap. we laid and watched TV for about 30 mins until Nyree made hs way into my room, Nyree was calm but when he saw my appearance he was furious, Yo Monay who da fuck did dis to her he asked Monay looking at me....Nyree had an idea but he didnt want to believe it, Ask her Monay said as she got up to walk out the room, im going to get something to drink from the lobby boo imma give yall time to talk Monay told me as she exited the room. Nyree softend his demeanor and asked me what happened, i told Nyree the story ND i didnt leave out any details, Nyree sat patiently as he took the words all in, MAm the nurse said interrupting our conversation, yes i said as she proceeded the hospital bed well id like to disgust somethings with you in private since you are stable. i told her she could talk in front of Nyree because he was my boyfriend, Nyree looked at me strangely with a look of shock because i had referred to him as my BOYFRIEND, something i never done before. Well who ever hit you banged you up a bit, and with all the blood you lost we had to hook u up 2 an I.V to get fluids into your system. she Told me she was going to give me sum Pain relievers and i could be released after the paper work was processed. I smiled and said thanks for her help. Mam Im sorry we couldn’t save the baby but you should be fine in a few days after you rest up. BABY? i asked her perplexed, yes mam BABY she said you where bleeding when you where brought into the hospital she told me, you where in the process of miss carrying when you came in to us, Where not sure if it was due to the fall or not but i can assure you that you where pregnant. Nyree looked to the floor the whole time, I was sad but the sadness was NUMB because for the last 2 years i was use to heart ache, i decided not to cry or dwell on this information. Me nd Nyree sat silent. The police came into my room and to make a long story short we acted as if we didnt know who had beat my ass because Monay was on probation and she could not have a gun in her possession at ALL. we told the police it was some thugs we had never saw before, they lied and said they would be on the look out for my attacker, but i new damn well once they left the hospital room so did the case! Monay helped me get dress and helped me outside, i had been released from the hospital. Nyree helped me into his truck You gone be okay momma Monay said as she walked to her car. Monay parted ways. Nyree didnt say one word to me, he just aloud Hot 107.9's radio station to play all the way to my apartment. When we arrived to my house Nyree helped me out the car and walked me inside, we said nothing! i sat on the couch and he did the same. i felt hurt because he was giving me the cold shoulder. i got up from the couch HURT i felt like Nyree blamed me, i tried to be strong but i knew the tears where going to flow, i grabbed a few shower items and headed to my bathroom. i ran the water on hot and climbed in the tub, i allowed the shower water to run because i new the shower would be loud enough that my tears would go un heard i sat in the shower and the water came down on top of my head and i cried, i cried for Myself, i thought about my life and i wondered would it get better, i cried about the 2 kids id never get to know. i cried because i new Nyree blamed me and i lost his child. i cried hard and Nyree heard every thing, i was crying so hard i didnt even notice him open the bathroom door, i sat in the shower with my knees pulled to my chest and my head down. Nyree un dressed and climbed in the shower with me he sat behind me and told me that he didnt want me crying alone. he held me as the hot water came down on the both of us. i felt alone although he was right there with me, I lost our child... Not Just Nyrees Child, Hell i lost 2 children! never to see them, Know them, play with them, i so badly wanted to be Needed! but what i longed for Nyree gave it to me. But still i was alone. I thought about my life and determined i was FUCKED! I love Nyree and the way he held me told me that he was there to stay. But I new Nyree didn’t need me and if he did it wasn’t how I wanted to be needed, I wanted a child that was always something I kept within. As Nyree Held me in the shower No words we Exchanged i just felt his love for me. Nyree quietly sobbed as he held me! i knew he was hurt. But this pain would make us Grow as 1....That night i devoted my life/nd love to Nyree!.....I didnt know what Nyree was planning to do but i prayed he wouldn’t do anything to jeopardize our relationship! We Spent time in the shower silent, no words where needed our bond was strong and I felt him as he did me!
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